Writing this diary at the train going to Shenyang.<\/p>\n
There’re 2 issues torching me today, one from work and another from my life. When the train departure, I started to think about the way to solve these issues.<\/p>\n
for the incident of work, it looks like I can’t change the result?or the trend, so my target has been changed to, what I can learn from this disaster, can I punish the people who made a mistake, or let them pay the price.<\/p>\n
Some lessons from this incident:<\/p>\n
after got these points, I was trying to solve my problem in life, but I can’t find a way. I complained in my Weixin friends circle, I found maybe the answer.<\/p>\n
there are rules in work, so you can learn a lesson one time, but the rules in life, it’s not so easy, laws only define a very low standard, which you can’t do, but still, there’re a lot of things,?which are not good, but you will not be punished if you did. It may be called morality.<\/p>\n
based on that, I can do nothing, I can’t do the same bad thing payback, I will feel guilty if I did, what I got is worry, anger, powerless.<\/p>\n
I decide to ignore it, when I tried to do something, I didn’t get any good, so the best idea is leave them away, what I can do now, is make myself better and leave the troubled place.<\/p>\n
the past month are really tough, as my wife said, you are not as power as you think, you are still a loser with no money. I’m not agreed with her, because negative thinking can not make you better, but I have to admit that I’m too poor to live in Beijing.<\/p>\n
My currently target is immigration, target is Germany, I plan to improve my Deutsch level to B1 from zero, in 1 year (worst case in 18 month), it means every 4 month, I need to reach a milestone(A1, A2, B1), normally one level need 160 hours learning, I have to spent 10 hours in every week learning Deutsch. It’s a really tough target, I doubt if I could follow this strength, the most?reasonable plan is 3 days from working days, 2 hours per day, 4 hours in Saturday or Sunday. I have tried doing some gym during my business trip, I think I can insist 3 month at least, but we will see if I could do or even?better, and if my Deutsch level could follow my plan.<\/p>\n
Every people, I’m actually talking about myself, has their gifts, my gift definitely was not relationships,?neighbors, relatives, even my wife, I can’t make things better. I need to change, be a follower in life, do not? try handle everything, spend my energy & gift in work, I will get a better situation.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"